Just thinking

Rambling here...

I just bought the most gorgeous fabric online.  I saw it about a month ago and resisted buying it and finally decided if I still liked it after this long I needed to get it.  I haven't been sewing as much as I was, because of the crocheting, but I seem to be hooked on hats and my kids can only wear so many hats this winter.  And we're in Arkansas - it's just not that cold here.  Right now I'm mixing the two - I've crocheted the top of what will become a dress.  I hope it doesn't look really cheesy.  I guess I'm a bit of a crafty snob.  There is a fine line between things looking handmade vs homemade, and crocheted stuff can easily fall into the homemade category.  Especially clothing. 

I had planned on getting a booth at the flea market and trying to sell some of my stuff, but I can't seem to get motivated to make enough of anything to make it worth my while.  I just don't like doing the same thing over and over.  I like to experiment and try new things.  I like doing things for friends, but to be honest, I don't care so much about strangers.  So I might just work it that way - if people want something, they can ask and I'll make.  Plus, if I'm busy making a bizillion bandana dresses, I have no time to make things for my kids.  I don't want to get burned out and hate sewing or crocheting, and I see how trying to sell my stuff will get me there really fast.

I'm trying to read a book about parenting strong-willed children (I don't do well reading non-fiction, hence the "trying").  I'm just not sure how well the hubby is going to participate and that's going to make or break anything I try to do.  I think I need to talk to him about maybe getting some help with his anger, too, because he's been blowing up a lot lately and I am totally not down with that.  I feel like I'm in a house of chaos lately and it's making me crazy.  I just keep telling myself that once school starts, things will get better - and I really hope that will be the case.

A friend of mine called me today to invite us to come visit her around Christmas.  I'm pretty stoked about it.  We've been friends since high school.  We were pretty close until we had a misunderstanding and then lost touch for several years, and now we've reconnected.  She has a little girl a few months younger than Isabelle, named Isabella.  Mine is Izzy and hers is Ella =)  I think going to see them is definitely something we should do.  She was telling me all the stuff her town has going on that time of year and it sounds like we will definitely have a blast.

I really need to work on getting my head back into the things I need to do, instead of burying myself in books and yarn - we need to save up for a new computer and I need to get a better grip on the housework again, and of course, get back into working out and eating better.  That's all I'm going to say about that one.  This summer just has not gone the way I had hoped.  We had such a blast last summer, but, man, this one has been just miserable.  I remember hating summers as a kid because it was so boring and we never did anything, so it's really bothering me that this summer has been such a bust.  It's not over yet, so hopefully I can salvage it