Thank you guys for all the support! It's been a trying week. I don't like being in tense situations, so it's really been getting to me.
I hit a breaking point of sorts yesterday. I had scheduled to take half a day off for a field trip with one of the girls. It was canceled due to rain, but I decided to take my time off anyway to avoid being around all the negativity. On my way out, I asked my boss if I could meet her at her other office to talk later (she is administrator over two offices, she spends the morning with us, then goes to the other).
I had decided to find another job. I wanted to let my boss know, because I respect her and didn't want to blind side her. I didn't want to do it at work because, well, I'll be honest... I was paranoid of my coworkers seeing us talking and then coming up with some wild story about what I'm up to (which is ironic considering what I'll tell you later).
I went home and worked on making a resume. It was hard. LOL. 15 years in one place makes for a very short and sweet resume. I did a job search and really didn't find anything. It was a bit discouraging, but a much needed reality check. Then I just spent some quiet time thinking, waiting for my boss to get to the other office.
Long story short, she talked me down off the ledge. She assured me that things would eventually get better and we just had a nice long talk. While I was there, since I had never been to that office she gave me a tour, introduced me to everyone, many of whom I've spoken to on the phone frequently but had never met face to face.
Today was a little better. I still got the cold shoulder from a lot of people but not as many. It gave me hope that the atmosphere may thaw out soon. I had a moment where I wanted to get really ugly and snarky, but I'm extremely non-confrontational and just couldn't.
See, earlier this year, a coworker asked me to crochet a pair of dolls, Santa and Mrs. Claus. I made Mrs Claus, but when I went to start Santa, the pattern designer had retired and deleted all her patterns. It took me months to track down a copy, and by then I was in the midst of home buying and moving. She's been one of the most surprising and obvious ones who turned against me. Surprising because she was M & B's favorite target for mean pranks and ugliness. So, while it's surprising that she is being cold towards me, it's not quite distressing because she's a bit of a difficult person to begin with.
Today, after a week of literally turning her back on me if I walked by, she decided to ask me about the Santa doll and if I'd get it finished before Christmas, and it wasn't just the fact that I'm irritated with her that pushed my button, but the way she asked. Very condescending. In my head, I said, "I'm sorry. I've been so busy with my evil plots and trying to get people fired that I haven't been able to work on it. Now I have Christmases to ruin and old ladies to punch, so I don't think I'll be able to fit it in. " But, instead, my blood pressure soared, making me barely able to sigh, "we'll see. "
Bill says I should be the bigger person and make the doll. I guess I need to go buy stuffing. Bah.
Anyway.... after I got home, something funny happened that I think will make things much better.
One of the ladies from my boss's other office came by and I guess she mentioned meeting me yesterday to someone, and that I had been given a tour. By the end of the day, this had grown into a big rumor that I went over there to tour because our surgery center is closing (and presumably my boss was giving me a job at the other office). It's ABSOLUTELY and ridiculously untrue. But these drama queens took it and ran with it. Finally, someone called my boss to get to the bottom of it.
I just have to laugh about it. I've gone from trying to get someone fired to be spiteful to being part of some secret plot where EVERYONE loses their job.
They also discussed the firing, and I'm really hoping that helps diffuse the situation. Maybe they'll see that it wasn't a case of me throwing a fit and my boss firing her to make me happy. I know probably nothing will fix things between B and myself, but she has been professional towards me when she has to talk to me, and I can live with that. Santa lady... like I said, she has always rubbed me wrong. I'll make the doll and be nice. But it won't be made with love. (Isabelle said I should make the doll for her so I enjoy doing it and then she'll sell it to the lady. She's quite clever. And greedy, because she has no intention of giving me the money LOL)