I seem to find little reminders on a daily basis that summer is fast approaching. I kind of dread the summer. The girls are all out of school, even Mother's Day Out takes the summer off, and three bored little girls plus one sleep-deprived father equals one nervous mother. We've experienced home hair cuts and epic messes the past few summers and I can't help but worry about what I might come home to.
Zoe begins pre-K in the fall, and since we do not meet the qualifications for public pre-K in our district, we have enrolled her in a private school. We did this with Olivia, but didn't with Isabelle. We regretted that we didn't put Isabelle in pre-K, because her preschool teacher didn't work with them at all and she was behind before she ever got started. Zoe knows things now that Isabelle didn't going into Kindergarten.
Chuck E. Cheese takes a much more flattering picture of me than I do...
I'm coming to realize that this gives us a bit of a dilemma. When I really sat down and crunched the numbers, once our tuition payments begin in June (which are about 30% more than we currently pay for MDO), our extra cash pretty much flies out the window. I'm not used to paying any sort of childcare in the summer, so we have had extra money in the past for me to use to do things with the girls to alleviate their boredom. We won't have it this year. After figuring in gas and the increase in groceries due to having them home all day.... we are running a much tighter budget that I am comfortable with.
Part of me thinks maybe we should take Zoe out of pre-K and find another MDO program with a 4 year old program. Our current MDO is a part of the private school, so they've eliminated their 4 year old program.... to boost pre-K enrollment, which only makes sense. Since Zoe has gotten more education from her teachers than Isabelle did, I'm not as concerned with pre-K.... but I know it would be a tough argument to win with my husband. Olivia has excelled so much in school and Isabelle has had a bumpy year.
Bumpy, but definitely not all bad...
How much is the pre-K factor and how much is just the individual child? Am I being selfish or practical? It's definitely a big discussion we need to have, but unfortunately one that we won't get to have for a few more days because of our schedules.
In the meantime, I've been thinking about ways to maybe bring in some extra cash. I have been revisiting the idea of having a booth at The Memphis Flea Market (in Little Rock). I'm debating going this weekend to scope it out again... see what kind of stuff they have already and if I would be able to bring something different to the table. I think... no, I know... I have a confidence issue here. I just keep thinking, "Would I even be able to sell enough to cover the fees?" Then I wonder if I'd even have time to make enough. And what if I don't sell anything? But there is a part of me that says, "So what? If you suck, at least you'd know you suck." I have to make some kind of leap sometime, right? I know my work isn't horrible... I was asked just today if I could make something for Zoe's MDO director.... I get compliments all the time on the things Zoe wears to school that I make.
The worst that can happen is that I lose a little bit of money, right? And who knows... maybe it would be the push to get me moving in the right direction. Away from working at a soul-sucking desk job and into doing something I truly enjoy.
I definitely need to just go check it out, see what's out there selling and then make a plan. I actually have a friend who helps run the place, so at least I wouldn't be flying blind in that department... she'd definitely walk me through it.
Can I do this? Should I do this? Should I keep Zoe in pre-K? Give me some opinions, points of view.... =)